Mending wounds that may never fully heal

Mount St. Vincent’s tailored approach to therapy

Tiffany was 10 years old when she arrived at Mount St. Vincent Home. She’d been shuffled around the past two years, moved from place to place, each claiming they couldn’t provide the care she needed.

Her self-abusive behaviors—biting herself, banging her head—were too much for caregivers. Tiffany (whose name was changed for privacy) was physically and at times sexually aggressive toward others, she placed herself in dangerous situations, and had a history of running away. All of these were behaviors to be expected from someone in her shoes, because the young girl had spent the first eight years of her innocent life suffering at the hands of chronic abusers.

Tiffany came from a family an expert described as “highly sexualized.”

“There was a lot of sexual abuse going on throughout the family,” explained Kirk Ward, clinical director at MSVH. “When you see a family like that, what you read is probably just the tip of the iceberg.”

She was sexually abused by the mother, and there were reports of sexual abuse going on with her sister by their father.

“There is no report of abuse (with Tiffany) by her dad, but you can bet there was something like that going on,” Ward said.

Her parents were also substance abusers.

“There was a lot of drug activity going on, a lot of back and forth, so they’re not really watching the kids,” he said. “Lots of people, lots of chaos, things happening to the kids that no one knows about.”

Within a couple weeks of her 8th birthday, Tiffany was finally removed from the home.

“That will always be an association for her,” Ward said, “my birthday, leaving my family.”

“It’s shocking it took so long to get her out,” he continued, “but that’s not uncommon either.”

Tiffany was placed in a foster home for four months, but removed because of her behavior. She lived in foster home number two for six months before being moved to a residential facility. She remained there for three weeks, the next facility for two months, and the third one six months, before coming to MSVH in January 2013.

MSVH, established originally as an orphanage in 1883 by the Sisters of Charity of Leavenworth, is a treatment center for children with severe behavioral and emotional challenges due to mental illness, trauma, abuse or neglect. According the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services, 3.2 million cases of “child maltreatment” were reported in 2012. Of these cases, 62,936 children nationwide were reported to have been sexually abused, 1,037 of them in Colorado.

When arriving at MSVH, the team assessed Tiffany and put together a plan applying the Neurosequential Model of Therapeutics, a developmentally sensitive approach to child trauma treatment.

“We put together a ‘brain map,’” Ward explained, “a measure of how she’s operating … and that in turn tailored the therapies we used for her.”

Because of the years of abuse, Tiffany suffered with dissociation, among other challenges, a term describing detachment from her immediate surroundings, and from her body, to escape reality.

“In order to survive that horrific type of abuse (a child) is going to have to dissociate,” Ward said.

Dissociation can be compared to feeling like being outside one’s body, he said, almost like watching the trauma happen.

“In the moment, that’s a good thing to have happen because it would be pretty awful to feel those kinds of things,” he said. “But if you continue to rely on that over and over, then that begins to become the way you’re interacting with the world, which is problematic.”

Treatments for children experiencing dissociation and other disorders are needed to regulate and calm them. Types of therapies beyond the cognitive behavioral approach at MSVH include play therapy, art, animal-assisted, tactile-massage, dance and movement, or music, to help therapists gently uncover traumatic stories that children often cannot verbalize—and allow healing to begin.

Tiffany’s treatment plan included art therapy, tactile-massage, and dance and movement therapy.

“Dance movement therapy … helps regulate through pattern and repetitive and rhythmic interventions,” Ward said of the treatment that may involve props such as scarves, hula hoops or streamers.

They began to see improvement in how Tiffany connected with and maintained safety with her body, her aggression and understanding boundary issues, Ward said.

“She also began going to Mass which is a little unusual,” he added.

While Mass attendance is not required, he explained, she must have had some experience of attending in her past. As a guardian of the state, she asked permission from the state to go.

“(Mass) is a time when you get some special attention, it’s peaceful, not a lot of noise, and there are a lot of adults around so you feel safe,” Ward said. “A type of spiritual connection is awesome too, that will help with recovery.”

After 18 months, about twice as long as an average stay, Tiffany moved to a more adolescent facility in June since MSHV is for girls and boys from age 5 to 12.

It is going to be a long healing process for her, Ward said.

“She was in a destructive environment a long time before anyone did anything,” Ward said. “She may never completely recover from that. But she was making progress; she felt connected here.”

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> April is child abuse prevention month. If you suspect abuse, call the state child abuse and neglect hotline at 1-844-CO-4-KIDS.

COMING UP: Father and son, deacon and priest: Deacon dads and priest sons share special bond as both serve God’s people

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The bond between a father and son is one of God’s greatest designs; however, when father and son are both called to serve the Church as deacon and priest, that bond takes on a whole new meaning. Just ask these two dads and their sons, all of whom answered the call to serve the people of God at the altar.

Deacon Michael Magee serves at Our Lady of Loreto Parish in Foxfield, while his son Father Matthew Magee has worked as the priest secretary to Archbishop Samuel J. Aquila for the past several years and will soon be moved to a new assignment as parochial vicar at St. Thomas Aquinas Parish in Boulder. Deacon Darrell Nepil serves at Our Lady of Lourdes Parish in Denver, and his son, Father John Nepil, served at several parishes within the archdiocese before his current assignment as a professor at St. John Vianney Theological Seminary.

However different their journeys may have been, all four have something in common; mainly, that far from seeing their vocations as a reward from God, they have received them as an uncommon gift of grace that has blessed their families and individual relationships with each other abundantly, knowing that God acts in different ways to help us all get to Heaven.

Interwoven journeys

Deacon Michael Magee was ordained in May 2009, at the end of Father Matt’s first year of seminary. Little did they know that God would use both of their callings to encourage each other along the journey.

Deacon Michael’s journey began when a man from his parish was ordained a deacon.

“I simply felt like God was calling me to do something more than I was doing at the present time,” he said. “I had been volunteering for a number of different things and was involved in some ministry activities and in the Knights of Columbus. And I thought the idea of being a deacon would be simply another activity for which I could volunteer.”

He didn’t know what it entailed at the time. In fact, he believed it was something a man could simply sign up for. To his surprise, the diaconate was more serious – and it required five years of formation and discernment. Yet he was so drawn to it, that he decided to do it anyway. But as he learned more about the nature of the diaconate during his formation, he became more nervous and unsure about whether God was really calling him to that vocation. 

While his doubts remained all the way up to his ordination, Deacon Michael was faithful to his studies, trusting that God would lead him in the right path. 

And God did — through the calling of his own son to the priesthood.

Deacon Michael didn’t realize that his son Matthew had paid close attention to his father’s faith journey and had found in it a light that gave him courage to discern the priesthood.

Father Matthew Magee (left) and his dad, Deacon Michael Magee (right), were both encouraging to one another as they each pursued their respective vocations. (Photo by Daniel Petty/Denver Catholic)

“Seeing my dad, as a father, growing in his relationship with the Lord was really influential for me on my own desire to follow Christ,” said Father Matt. “Looking at his courage to discern his own vocation and follow God’s plan in his life gave me the strength and courage to be open to the same thing in my life… He played a very important role, whether he knew it or not at the time, and whether I knew it or not at the time.”

On the other hand, Father Matt didn’t know that his dad was in turn encouraged by his own response to God’s calling. 

“As I went through all those doubts, I watched Matthew’s journey in seminary and listened to how he was dealing with that in his life. And, as he just articulated very well, I also saw those same qualities in him,” Deacon Michael said. “Seeing a young man in his 20s willing to consider following God for the rest of his life also gave me the courage to continue on in my own journey, to see it through.”

God’s way of uplifting them in their vocations through each other’s journey is something they are very grateful for. 

This unusual grace impacted Father Matt during his first Mass, when his dad, as deacon, approached him before the Gospel reading and asked for the traditional blessing by calling him “father.”

“It was a really special moment for me. He’s certainly my biological father and raised me. But then there’s something different when we’re at the altar in a clerical capacity — there’s a strange reversal of roles when we’re giving spiritual nourishment to the people — a father asks the new father for the blessing,” he said.

In both of their vocations, Deacon Michael and Father Matt see God’s Providence and the unique plan he has for all of us.

“We all have a vocation, even if it’s something we may not expect,” Deacon Michael concluded. “You may feel anxiety or worry about what it’s going to look like, but trust in God. He will take care of things as he always does.”

A bribe for Heaven

For Deacon Darell and Father John Nepil, the journey was different, but not any less providential.

While he grew up Catholic, Father John wasn’t interested in setting foot on any Church activity during his teenage years. His saving grace was perhaps what many parents have to do to get their teenagers to Church: bribe them.

“His mom and I basically bribed him to go to the Steubenville of the Rockies Conference,” Deacon Darell said with a laugh. “He didn’t want to go, but we’d heard so many good things about it, that we said, ‘We’re going to make this happen, whatever it takes.’”

So the Nepils came up with a creative idea.

“He owed me some money for a uniform that he had needed for a job in the summer. So, I said, ‘Listen, if you go to the Steubenville of the Rockies Conference, I’ll forgive your debt. And he did, he and his brother went. And John especially came back a different boy. He literally was converted with a lightning bolt at that retreat.”

To this day, Father John marks his conversion to Christ from the summer before his senior year in high school when he attended that conference. 

As it happens with stories worth telling, the details of how much money he owed his father have varied over the years, and it’s a matter of debate among them, but Father John remembers it was close to $500.

“That’s subject to each one,” Father John said laughingly. “But what matters is that they offered to forgive my debt if I went to this retreat – it was money well spent.”

Besides this important event, Father John said that his dad influenced him in many ways by the simple fact of who he was as a father.

“My dad’s faith and moral character were a rock for me during some difficult teenage years,” he said. “He’s a great example of a man who was always faithful and lived a really outstanding moral life, but then as he deepened in love with Christ, he decided to give of himself in a more profound service.”

Father John Nepil (left) and Deacon Darrell Nepil (right) both had rather roundabout ways to their respective vocations, but they both say serving God’s people together as brothers in Holy Orders is a great joy. (Photo provided)

Besides his desire to serve and follow God, the seed that would eventually lead Deacon Darell to the diaconate was planted by a coworker, who would also take holy orders: Deacon Joe Donohoe.

“One day he said to me, ‘You should be a deacon.’ And, of course, I laughed at him and said, ‘I don’t have time for that. My life is too busy.’ But it only took him to suggest it for the idea to keep coming back to my head, and God kept nudging me. Eventually I decided I really wanted to do that,” Deacon Darell said.

The ability to share at the altar during the Mass has deepened the natural relationship of father and son and given Deacon Darell and Father John new opportunities to grow closer to God. 

One of the most meaningful times came when Deacon Darell had a massive stroke in 2018. While he was in the hospital, Father John was able to visit and celebrate Mass at his bed and pray the rosary with him every day, as he had come back from Rome and was working on his dissertation.

“It was probably the most privileged and intimate time I’ve ever had with my father,” Father John said. “It was an amazing gift that really changed our relationship.”

“I feel like that’s a huge reason why I healed and why I am here today,” Deacon Darell added.

“It’s a real gift to have my dad as a deacon and a brother. It’s a tremendous honor. It’s one of the great joys of my life.” Father John concluded. “That’s really what has bonded our relationship together: the sheer desire to serve Jesus, especially in holy orders.”